Hi
My life has changed dramatically over the past month and is going to continue too as I am moving to Australia at the end of January to study a masters. It is not as huge as it sounds because my grandma lives there and I will live with ehr and I have been quite a few times so it feels like a second home.
I feel like I need some support over the next month or so, which is why I am writing.
To give a brief background. I developed anxiety about a year and a half ago now. It came out of the blue, starting with a big panic attack one day. I had quite a few stressors in my life at the time. I started taking Citalopram which had very bad side effects for the first 6 weeks, I had CBT once a week for 3 months and as and when I needed it after that. I gradually got better and in June came off the Citalopram.
I was due to begin a masters in September in London and move to another flat with my boyfriend. I had been with him on and off for 10 years and lived with him for almost 3 years. A week before the masters started he broke up with me. Something snapped and I knew I couldn't go through a break up and get back together and so fourth, as in the past and I felt like I couldn't cope without him. I immediately moved out of our flat and am now staying at a friends.
I became depressed and very anxious. I thought I could get through it without medication but started taking Escitalopram a week ago. I just couldn't go on feeling so spaced out, detached, having strange thoughts.
So here I am now. I have started taking 5mg of Escitalopram 2 days ago. I am currently on holiday woth my mum in fuerteventura. I am still going to work but have some days when I can't. I am now getting ready for xmas and then australia. I am feeling very anxious from the escitalopram.
Any words of supported appreciated, it helps to share my experience.
Michelle