9 Years of Seroxtat-my findings
I used to be a shy lad, then went to college and got some confidence, started taking LSD, and experienced what is known as a downer, could not laugh, my face dropped, felt very uncomfortable....
This symptom has stayed with me since that trip....feeling uncomfortable in public, isolated....I have never really had a diagnosis, doc says anxiety....I am 33 now and still feel uncomfortable, have crossed wires way of thinking, I can go red at a supermarket checkout even, ....I hate the feeling that Iam being looked at....it can lead to my face dropping and a look of acute uncomfortableness overcomes me....criticism can also stimulate this...when this feeling is really bad i get chest pains and i cant think.....
When I was 24 the doc put me on peroxetine to take the edge off.....it was a miracle, the anxiety ereased, and I could be myself....I read that this drug gives you personality, it does not, it just allows you to be yoursdelf, and operate without fear....shyness gone, awkwardness gone, negativity gone....however, the side effects are various:
1. The major one is reduced labido........this drug is a double edged sword......when i started taking this drug i suddenly felt comfortable talkking to girls i liked, makin em laugh etc, but then when it came to sex, i could not get hard or stay hard....this is a brutal side effect, and I have had many a humiliation with this.....I noticed my masterbation levels reduced from daily to bi-monthly....unheard of for a man..... What do you do...? Well, you accept the drugs side effect, u get lucky and meet a woman who understands, and you have sex life thats is varied and good, sometimes I can't finish the job....so be it...I find leaving my meds off for a few days helps erection.
2. Second major side effect is the effects on alcohol....basically you get drunker....i have continued my normal social life, and when i went to 20mg from ten...i would find after a certain amount of pints i would go off into the twighlight zone, and wake up the next day, having p****d the bed, and with no memory of night before, and a hangover that would last all day, and night.......I have wet the bed with a woman I chatted up, another humiliation.....but this is the risk...I realise I am being brutally honest, and
to read this u may get a certain impression,....but I am a good looking lad, with many friends....and most just think I cant handle the drink...and because of my low labido perhaps was a closet homo....brutal really, if only they knew the effects of the drug I was on....but I could never tell them, feel like a freak.
3. other side effects I have.....well an ultra weak bladder
4. Perhaps weaker bowel, IBS now, cant say whether this is prolonged use of peroxetine....
I am sure many can identify with parts of this....if i get responses i shall add more theiries on the pros/cons of this drug.
Despite these cons, the anxiety and social uncomfortableness even with my friends is hundreds of times worse.....u can beat bed wetting and over drinking by sticking to the same brand of beer, drink bottles not pints, avoid spirity...
sex wise, be up front with the partner and that removes worry and gives you the excuse why u may not perform.
peroxetine saves.
Mr Bowels....sunderland UK
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