im going to a fireworks show tonight, but its also where there is a carnival. to see the fireworks you have to walk through the crowds of people and up and down a couple hills. its pretty far from where people are to park and ive always been anxious and nervous and a bit fidgety around people, especially crowds of people, since ive started getting panic attacks. i have gone to the carnival/fireworks before when my anxiety was kind of at its worst and was able to make it through it but even though ive done it before im still nervous about going. i keep trying to tell myself ('ive done it before and gotten through it, may have gotten a little fidgety a few times and overcame it, but i still got through it') but im still a bit nervous. anyone have any ideas of how to stop thinking about it and getting nervous?
its about 5:30pm right now and we're probably going to leave around 7:30-8:00pm.
Jenn
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then i had one when we were about to walk down a hill to find a spot to sit, but ultimatley we stayed towards the top since i was a bit edgey. i decided to record the firworks on camera to kind of keep my mind busy and not think about the hundreds of people around me. but, the fireworks wasnt anything like afterwards trying to get out of the place. we sat in an apartment parking lot for about a 30-45 minutes. three lanes of traffic trying to merge into one lane, not a good thing. i did ultimatley end up yelling and cussing at a person in a car that cut us off and barely missed hitting us. pretty much everyone but my mom was yelling, she was too busy stopping. i kind of feel better releasing all the stress from the whole day, although it wasnt exactly the way it should have gone [}
] overall it was OK and a 30 minute ride home actually took us about 2 hours. now im just a bit tired and am looking for a good nights rest! [Sigh...]
]Scatty Eccentric & 'Poet Laureate to panic and anxiety'
