Ok - my first post here..
I have been suffering with anxiety for a few months now - I guess I know what brought it on really - my husband suffers with depression and the last year has been a real struggle for both of us..I guess the anxiety was brought on by never knowing what his moods were going to be like.. his depression has been severe and it has put our relationship through hell. I just think I came to a point where I couldnt take any more. I started to realise this when I noticed if people got to close to me - I wanted to scream at them - even my own children......Shopping became a nightmare...I would search for an open space and go there quickly very tearful.
I now force myself to go out - I hate it...I just want to be left alone, dont answer the phone and in fact have just withdrawn myself from people.
I once thought that these feelings and actions were that of a timid unconfident person - but I am not at all like that - I am bubbly, confident and outgoing.
I am currently signed off work - I have attempted to return but the horrible feelings returned for days again - I am seeing the doctor and have been taking Citalopram, for about 5 weeks now.
I am hoping I can learn to control this it seems there is nothing I can do to stop it at the moment. It seems that my husbands condition has played a big part in this - he has currently accepted medication but as anyone knows about depression - no decisions are lasting ones