I am finding it really hard to cope at the moment I am so depressed nearly every day is a struggle I keep busy and i have actally done loads this morning, but as soon as my daughter comes home lunchtime to take me out I start to feel strange and my head clamps up and the tiredness hits and so its just driving about. We stopped at the shops but Iwas just too bad to attempt to go in. I havent been in a shop for nearly a year ( when this setback started) so I started to cry as usual and it all seems so pointless I long to be able to go out and enjoy myself again but its been so long now I dont see it ever changing and I have so much guilt about my husband he has spent years building our business up and we should be having a great life with no money worries I cant remember the last time we went out together but its been years I dont know how he has stayed with me . He does have a social life but gets fed up being the only one without a partner and now I feel we have drifted apart although he doesnt agree. I belong to the No Panic charity
and have just finished a 14 week phone group on cbt which I enjoyed and have gone on to the befriending group my goal this week was to go in a shop and somehow by tuesday I HAVE to do it. I just think that after all these years and after all I acheived over the years I am back to sqaure one trying to get in a shop. Sometimes I just dont think I have the strength to start all over again.
Luv Barb xxx