my step-dad (he was engaged to my mom, i call him daddy) had passed away in march of 96' a couple months later in may, my best friend had past away from CF a couple days after my 9th b-day. I didnt start getting panic attacks or depression till 01-02. but around that time my mom's husband, i dont consider him to be my step-dad or family, would always try to touch me (in a bad way) i had ended up telling my mom a couple years after it started, although i didnt tell her everything he has tried to do or has done. she had said she was going to give him a divorce but never did. they are still married and i always get a sick feeling when he's around me or even when he walks passed me. i dont feel like i could/should tell my mom or anyone in my family about any of the other times cause i think it would pretty much be pointless if nothing is going to be done. my mom had even stood up for him when he had molested one of my old friends that i had grew up with. he only got 5 years probation and had to go to classes and that was it. and even after that he was trying to do things to me or get me to do some things. i was a little apprehensive of writing all this, i havent even told my councilor i used to go to that he has tried many other times than what they all already know. i, of course never would let him and would tell him to stop, even though he wouldnt. my family pretty much doesnt support me all that much so i feel like im all alone other than being able to talk on here.
the only person that doesnt know about what he has done, other than what he did to my old friend, is my oldest brother. my mom says he knows it all but i know he doesnt cause my mom's husband would probably be sitting in a wheelchair right now if not worse.
Jenn
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