I have just joined this site and wanted to get some of my feelings off my chest with people who may understand.
I have contamination OCD. I have had some CBT and Clomipramine and was managing things ok. However, I am having some medical treatment which means I had to try to stop the Clomipramine and I am under a huge amount of stress. My OCD has accordingly worsened.OCD is so cruel it kicks you when you are down. I had to restart the Clomipramine earlier in the week. I feel overwhelmed by the OCD and am doing all the things you are not supposed to do ie seeking reassurance and shouting at the OCD.
Today has been a nightmare for me, its the time of the month ( a nightmare every month for me) and I accidently while trying hard not to touch a sanitary towel bin at work touched the inside of the lid of the bin where you put offending articles. I washed my hands with normal soap immediately and then used some alcohol gel but I have been in such a state tonight and am scared I will not be able to stop the thoughts and anxiety about the bin. Blood and toilets are my nemesis.