I think you might be rightFor me it seems to be a variant of agoraphobia.
I think you might be rightFor me it seems to be a variant of agoraphobia.
Hi Graham, I’ve only just seen this, sorry.
I broke my own rules and had a bit of a google the other day, and I think you’re right. There’s definitely a link with derealisation too though, like the tired derealised mind just can’t quite comprehend things the same and is easy overwhelmed.
Either way it’s a bloody nightmare, and I’m over 6 months in and still don’t know what to do about it.
Hello dear friend, first of all I pray that you are doing well.
Secondly I have the same thing and it happened in 2018 when I had a combination of trauma’s (someone randomly treat me with a gun, and fear of flying). 15/12/2018 was the treat, 26/12/2018 was flight to turkey after 8-9 years of avoiding flying bcs of fear. Now I had severe panic attacks and overthinking, then I started to look at the space, the sky and always would see the planes fly. Then I began to think the same way as you did my friend, became aware of everything and how big the sky and world is and how small we are, I think indeed existential terror. After alot of exposure and praying I was able in 2019-2020 to go outside again, also had DR/DP anxiety of the sky and just by thinking or looking at it. While 2020-2021 was with ups and downs. It started with small walks, praying etc. 2022 I took the plane 2x and I was so happy I overcame it! I saw the sky as something beautiful and creation of God. 2023 got engaged and 2024 married went 2x flying on a plane. There was always a fear that was trying to enter but I would pray…
Now the thing is 5 weeks ago I had an violent intrusive thought of my own wife, I was depressed and dwelling on my mind again… probably I ve got some form of ocd too? Anxiety disorder took a toll in this life I am blessed with, but now I overcame that thought but all of the sudden those old thoughts are coming back and it made me sick, because I will always see the sky, the greatness and creation of our God, why am I afraid? Is it because of the thinking? Because of how small I am and this world so big?
How are you doing now? I got now a therapist and with the grace of God I want and need help.
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