HelloI am new here but am really clutching on straws now trying to keep myself sane.I am at work and want to burst into tears. I lost my grandfather in January who deteriorated rapidly because of cancer. It was the first time cancer ever affected our family that directly. I kind of crawled into a whole and I spent a month signed off work and on special leave.My husband made me go for blood tests that I had asked the doctor about, he said this was a step in helping me. I would tremble at the thought I was dying too. (i still feel this way)I had the blood tests and they came back as no further action. Following this I had a massive panic attack at work and freaked out. I went back to my doctor and she checked my heart and discussed my blood tests. She just just said that I had loads of tests. Im not quite sure exactly what for as they were routine tests but there were loads of results on her screen. I did ask about cancer and she said there are certain markers used in blood testing that can indicate cancer. I am assuming this was done in my tests.But if cancer was in the system, would some abnormality show up?i amterrified of breast cancer at the moment. I think I feel things and then am not sure, my doctor has said if I want I can go back and she will go through a breast exam.I am just scared and wondering if I should draw trust my bloods? This is taking over my life now and I feel sick, feel I am on the edge of a breakdown and just want to run out of the office now.