I was determined not to post again about anything other than positive things, and I have tried to stay positive all the time but deep down I dont feel good at all, Ive struggled all week and longer if truth be known, but have pretended everything is Ok.
I have a big night coming up tomorrow, I am going to a concert but i wonder if I will even go, as the night draws on Im feeling terrible panics just thinking about it, worse than I have had for ages.My heart is beating so fast I feel as if it will explode.irrational thoughts are multiplying by the dozen, I even feel people are laughing at me,I know Im tired because I get very little sleep. I have tried to go to bed three times but as soon as I lay down I cannot handle the situation.
Not really sure why Im posting because I know all you wonderful people will come with super vibes but I feel rubbish, Sorry guys.
i have done all sorts today to try and be positive, Ive had my hair done, Ive been in a cafe, Ive been to a charity meeting, all these things I couldnt do a few months ago.My life has been busy and uprooted in some ways and I think maybe Im doing too much??Love Alexis