Feeling low, useless and worthless
hi everyone, im having a really bad day today. i have had so many panic attacks, nightmares and everything lately and im so depressed i just dont know how much more i can take of it all. i've never been depressed this bad before, i've always tried to look on the bright side even when life throws so much at me. i have been thinking about a way out and sometimes sit here just crying and wishing id never been born. i tried seeking help from my mental health team, who know about my horrific past and agorapobia and everything, but they just told me to snap out of it and grow up, this woman said theres no such thing as depression and i need to stop making a fuss as many people have bad pasts. i just really dont know what to do. my medication isnt helping. i feel so lost.
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What is not a dream by day
to him whose eyes are cast.
On things around him, with a ray
turned back upon the past?