Hi everyone,
Some of may/not know, that recently I've been put on Effexor/Venlafaxine which has been helping. However, this week I ran out and I forgot to collect my prescription (I've been trying to meet deadlines at uni) as it just slipped my mind. The real problem was, I couldn't access my GP to pick up the prescription because it was closed. So I've had a little bit of a run around trying to find an out of hours GP service that can prescribe it. Needless to say I got it in the end.
The major issue here is, during the time I was off my meds, the withdrawals were kicking in (and on Effexor it's very bad) and I was getting brain zaps, disorientation etc. But amongst this, I was also very irrational and just not myself at all (well the normal person I am when on medication I suppose) and I was been extremely aggressive. I was swearing at my parents for no reason at all, driving my car like a raving lunatic (nearly crashing several times) and was looking for a fight. Everyone was my enemy, and the world was dark, grim, cruel, and full of selfish idiots.
Now that I look back at this, I feel terrible. I've never acted like this before, but was it in me? You know, am I really like this and something just leaked out? Or did the withdrawals on the meds completely change me? It was all very scary. My parents said, it just was not like me at all. They were really worried.