Stupid agoraphobia

[PoppyC]

I have just tried to get out the house - just down the road to post office - and I cant do it. I have tried so hard. I just downed 2 large Baileys and I dont even drink! just go get past that stupid front door. I live in a fairly rural area so its not like its exactly busy out there. I cant do it!!! Its a nightmare. I get upset cos I get told to confront my phobia and then when I confront it, its a nightmare. I am sat crying buckets of tears cos I am so fed up with all of this.

[belle]

Hey hun...
Don't get mad with yourself - YOU TRIED!
How far did you get?

x

[bluegirl09]

i wish i was there with you id say you CAN DO IT you can however hard it seems however scary and bad the symptoms are you can get to that bloody post office -stay off the booze tho i love baileys always reminds me of xmas maybe just go half way to the post office just having some frsh air at first maybe only 100 yards its a start kid and when you do get there give yourself a bloody good treat - i made it for a weekend away my problem is i can leave my home but as long as i can get back im okay soo going 400 miles was a nightmare i did though!!! and im gonna have a haircut n colour and get some new togs done beat yourself up at least you tried you may have too try 100 times but you will get there good luck too you x

[belle]

Poppy..
What has happened since this fantastic, positive post?

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=46143

x

[12ema]

Hey im exactly the same! its so frustrating not been able to go out without feeling so bad.when i do try it seems to go wrong then i feel angry with myself and really down. But you do have to keep trying take really small steps to build confidence an take one day at time.. x x x

[amandaj]

its horrible not being able to go out im the same , a wine for dutch courage but today ive got to go out no matter what at half 3 to see a psyciatrist , ive never felt so scared i dont think your def not alone but well done for trying
amandaxx

[diane07]

Poppy,

imagine for one minute, you wake up and you are at the post office, and the panic starts coming because you've got to get home, and you feel home is so far away.

This is what happened to me yesterday while i was in the zoo, all of a sudden i was like.............oh oh! its too far and too long to run back to the car, the things that went through my head were unbelievable.....to the point of i wanted to ask one of the zoo keepers could he get one of there motorised buggy things to get me back to the car.........erm how embarresing would that have been, so all i could do was say to myself........you're stuck and there isn't anything you can do so i'll have to panic all round the zoo, and then i started thinking .........okay whats the worse thats gonna happen, i'm gonna start hyperventilating but i wont pass out, i never have, so i said to myself.......okay panic do your worse....

nothing happened hun!

try little steps first, like to the end of the road, then to round the block and so on.

But please don't beat yourself up about it, just do it slowly

best wishes

di xx

[PoppyC]

I did it!!!!!! I did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went - ok I was actually crying down the length of the road and could hardly breathe and was red hot and it felt like I was scaling Mount Everest but I finally got in that post office!!!!!!!!!!!! The postmaster was talking to me but I could barely get my words out cos I was hyperventilating so much!!! I bet he could smell the drink on me too!!!!!! I bet he thought I was some crazy drunk woman on a Monday afternoon in the village post office!!!
I came back out and felt better on the way home but I could still hardly breathe and the wind was against me which for some reason makes me stress more. I got in and collapsed in a heap. I feel absolutely exhausted!!!!!!!!
I did it though!!!!!!!!!!!! All that just to post a parcel to my little 9 year old niece!!! She better appreciate it! lol
Thank You everyone for your kind words of encouragement. Di - Your post was so encouraging too. Thanks everyone - I dont mean to whinge so much. Its so hard though sometimes isnt it?

[nomorepanic]

Aww Poppy

Fantastic well done

[woody32]

Well done Poppy!! I have had that myself and know how awful it is...I still get it at times too...keep telling yourself positive things and remember that nothing bad happened and its just thoughts......big hugs to you xx