Hello,
I am a 49 year old man who has started experiencing panic attacks almost constantly over the past few days. Fortunately. (or unfortunalely, depending on your point of view), I was afflicted by this same asault in 1985. A psyche doctor LOADED me with drugs - started with xanax (Monstrous dose). It cured the panic, but then he decided I was depressed, and prescribed tofranil... I almost died. Had an allergic reaction, didn't sleep for 72 hours, my BP never dropped below 146/110 during that time, and it was SIX months before I could feel my lips again. Anyway, he gave me other meds, the result of which caused me to have absolutely no memory of the first six months of 1986. Enventually, I lost an excellent job, two kids, and almost everything I owned.
I finally removed myself from this doctor and these meds by 1989 (I was taking 1/2 of a .25 xanax at the end, and, after a week of xanax withdrawl, which I was prepared for, never had another attack...
Until now.
I have rebuilt my life, career, married a wonderful woman. Then, here at Christmas time, the panic attacks have come blasting at me again, and I am terrified. Ive dusted off the old books, tried using my old tools, with varying success, and even purchased a pint of Vodka today, in case things get so bad I have to anesthetsise myself to oblivion. (I am a teetotaler, never drank in my life, and hope nver to, but I'm desperate.) Here in West Virginia (USA), there are no family docs in during the holidays. The past few nights, I have called the Behavior med wards at the two local hospitals, and they talked me thru the late night attacks, but of course cannot provide anything else.
I purchased a book by Jerilyn Ross "Triumph over Fear" yeasterday, and read it by this morning. I would love to be able to control these attacks without meds, as she puts forth. I have read horror stories about the "new Drugs", Lexipro, etc, and am terrified of having another tofranil episode.
I realise I am rambling a bit, but for those of you who have been here, please understand my fear and pleadings. I am a very frightened man. If anyone can offer suggestions, their views on other meds (Hopefully I can get in to see my family MD sometime this week after his holiday break) or just offer up a prayer for me, I would be so indebted. For the moderator, even if this is too long or inapproproate for your forum, thank you so much for the opportunity to express my fears to someone.
God bless you all, and thank you for your site.
Rick, me714@aol.com