Hey all,
I just wanted some advice about the counselling. I initially refused it and now have said i will go and have been put onto a waiting list (about 2months ago).
I know it is better down here than in some areas cos the waiting list is onlly about 4months i believe.
But i have a dilema.
I want to cancel it.
My reason for saying i would go was i felt i was in a dark place with feeling i couldn't cope with and felt very alone. However, i feel now i am on the up and my life seems much more manageable and my reasons now for saying i want to cancel is i really don't want to go back to that dark place and don't want to have to think about what i was feeling before.
I know talking helps but i feel talking on here and with ppl on msn has helped me get to this stage so in my eyes i would be talking a huge leap backwards to drag up things i have moved on from.
I hope this is making sense and i just need to know some opinions.
Advice i have received so far is that i cannot be sure the depression will not come back later on if i haven't aired or discussed those thoughts.
Also, if i go to first appointment i will be able to tell counsellor how i feel about being unsure.
Trouble is i am worrying about it and this isn't helping me just get on with things. I am scared of going and would feel much better right now if i just decided to cancel and move on.
What do you guys think!!!???
Sax xx[8D]