Thank you Chat room members, for giving me the encouragement to go shopping.
I was feeling so anxious but needed to go out as I had enough of staying in and feeling sorry for myself.
Dad gave me a lift in the car to a local shopping centre and at the time I felt very self concious. I wasn't sure I'd be able to cope alone but I thought, fight the fears and I wasn't too far from home which eased my anxiety.
I had to leave my mobile at home charging which I didn't like but once I started shopping and treated myself, I was ok.
Started feeling a bit sick which panicked me but I carried on hoping I'd feel better. Felt yucky for alot of the time I was shopping but I was feeling better gradually.
I treated myself and bought cd's, trainers, a few items from Boots and 3 pc games with a gift card.
Now I feel totally drained - physically and mentally and had to walk home, which didn't help.
Hate that yucky feeling but I'm used to it. Taking baby steps has worked and I'm glad I went out.
Felt strange to be out and about again but with your encouragement, it was a success.
Thank you !!
Sorry for the long post.
Ju