Hi, i was so happy my boyfriend was back form america yesterday, and yet tonight i am thinking i dont want to be with him and oh god help i have doubts etc...
The thing is, i have taken my last pill tonight and i always get this when i am on my break, and always think i dont love him or he doesn't love me.. and i haven't been well last night so feeling ill like that takes out alot of emotions and leaves only enough to deal with getting better.. dont forget me and mark met at uni so since june 10th we have had to deal with only seeing each other a couple of times and speaking on the phone... and i worried my head off before him going away that id end up getting so used to not speaking with him, that id be disgusted or repelled by the thought of being with him or that i would love him etc... so i think how i am feeling could be cos i am what psychologist say, living up to my "psychic predictions and visions" of what my anxiety said would be.. i hope it is that cos i got used to no contact i feel weird cos of that and not feeling well and hormones..
I am young and he is young and we have been together over 9 months so its probably different than if we were married for years, but i was curious if any of you ever get like that with your partners, just purely cos of silly anxious thoughts etc?
Thanks
Emily X
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