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I'm really sorry, it feels like I've let you all down ... I did take bits and bobs at the festival, and the main reaosn is this:
Being a melancholic and anxious girl I find it incredibly painful and sad when I'm feeling horribly depressed and I can't fit in or interract with other people, and as I'm sure most people who visit this site understand that you can feel very lonely in a room full of your friends. Well this weekend I felt like I just wanted to be 'normal' and do the things that everyone else seems to be able to do with little or no trouble. And I felt quite stable and cheery and wanted to make the most of that feeling and not always be the one saying no.
I'm not about to start behaving this way every weekend, but I don't have any regrets about it. For me it is such a big thing to actually go into crowds and have fun and loose my inhibitions and fears, and just feel like I fit in. I'm not going to do that every time I want to fit in though! That would surely be game over. And I'm not about to start recommending that anyone does take recreational drugs when they're on anti-depressants because all of our brains are so complex and different - and that just from day to day!
<div align="right">Originally posted by bluedandylyon - 22 August 2005 : 14:31:06</div id="right">
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