im so messed up, i keep thinking i should finish with my boyfriend mark but if you read two weeks without contact and relaitonship doubts (under general anxiety) i thinkyoud see im being a bit silly rather than it being a proper thing.. the thing is, i havent seen mark for over two weeks and for most that time not even spoken to my boyfriend, and i wont see him til two weeks time, and on the phone he has irritated me the last two days since being back... the thing is, i am on my break and get all messed up with it... so it could be that which is fueling these break up thoughts... why would i get upset and still need him if i really didnt want to be with him...? and its cos of no contact at all and the not seeing him for a while thing that is part of it, i need that balance or i get negative etc, since coming home for summer from uni and us being apart, when we have been together i have fallen back into the more happy balanced me that i am when i am with him, so without the happy bits i get being with him, i get uptight, isecure etc... and i have these obsessive thoughts of breaking up.... i dont think i have O.C.D or anything but i think these thoughts are obsessive cos of anxiety stuff and worries... its so stupid it really is... and i am more frustrated cos he is the only person i can talk to and without him i feel worse.. so its annoying me i cant talk to him....
Power of the mind is incredible, we now think negative by it, we can get out thinking positive too!