Emetophobia 'phases'
Hi, I've been emet for around 25 years...
There have been times when this wasn't really an issue for me, no obsessive worrying/avoidance/cleaning/panic/depression - you know the score. But right now it's the worst it's ever been, and has been like this for 2 years. Why? What was different during the periods when this demon wasn't ruling my life? Right now, I think about s*** every day, many times a day, I just can't stop myself. I want to scream and shout and lash out at all those irresponsible people who don't quarantine themselves/their family after an 'episode'. How can they be so selfish???
The fact that I HAVE had periods when I could carry on a relatively normal life just reinforces the truth - it's in MY mind, under MY control. So now I am even more angry... at myself. For being so weak and useless.
Sorry, just needed to vent
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