This may sound silly but I'm gonna blurt it out anyway.
Before I start, I'm not depressed and haven't been particuarly anxious as past while either. But I think about suicide, not planning how to go about it, more think about it because I know I shouldn't if that makes sence.
This morning I was out for a walk, Where I live is on the coast, there is a nice little forest which I walk around, I was out walking and it popped into my head that a woman had killed herself by hanging a few years back in this forest, The thought came into my head, what if I flipped out and did it, Or what if I went over there and jumped into the sea and drowned. Just total $hit, but it worries me that it even pops into my head. I bet normal people don't think about this?
The more I try not to think about it, the more I think about it, this then leads on to other random thoughts thoughts like,
"Perhaps I don't have anxiety at all, perhaps its something worse"
"What if people who commit suicide aren't depressed, what if they just have these random thoughts I am having and act on them?"
Can anyone relate to this?
Can anyone offer any advice?