My husband and I are just beginning to get divorced, after I found out he'd committed fraud and forged my signature to do so. The thought of facing the future without him was horrendously scary - I suffer from separation anxiety and he was always my "safe" person. In the past 4 years, I'd only spent about 3 nights away from him, when I always stayed at a friend's house as my anxiety meant I couldn't stay in the house on my own.
Anyway... when I first found out I was facing a future without him, I was sooo worried, I felt like I couldn't do it. Since then though, with a lot of determined and positive thinking, I've spent two weeks at my sister's house 200 miles away (I also find it hard being away from home), I went to Ireland for a long weekend with my parents (they're my second lot of "safe" people although they weren't as safe as my husband, and again, it meant being away from home), I got a 2 hour train journey on my own 200 miles away in an unfamiliar area, I now don't phone my husband throughout the day to see where he is, I don't know where he is all the time like I used to, I never know what time he's coming home, and... the biggie... I spent last night overnight on my own in the house!!! My husband left at 8am and I'm still on my own now! I'm so pleased, even a few weeks ago I would've thought this was impossible, but when I found out he was going away I just thought "I'm going to do this" and I did! And it was even easier than I expected, obviously I wasn't 100% relaxed but I didn't have any panicky feelings!
So, I really feel like I'm moving on and I've achieved so much. This time last year I couldn't have contemplated any of this, I felt like I'd never be able to do it. So it just goes to show, it is possible!
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