I apologise in advance if anyone thinks I'm just posting a load of waffle, but tonight I am feeling worse than I have done in the last two months. I feel so drained and low that I feel I am about to burst into tears. I have this terrible feeling of nausea, my head feels "too heavy" and I am really tired, but feel too scared to go to bed. I am convinced that I have something seriously wrong with me. I went to the doctors last week and my GP is sending me for blood tests (thyroid function etc) and also to a lung function specialist as sometimes I feel as if I can't catch my breath. My GP did say that I should really take more exercise and that he didn't suspect there to be anything wrong with me, but is sending me for the tests anyway to rule out any physical illness. I don't like to go to bed as when I close my eyes, I imagine all sorts of awfull things in my head which means I am unable to sleep even though right now I feel extremely tired. I am 37, but feel as if I'm 97. I feel so washed out. My GP has said that I'm suffering from anxiety, but all the symptoms feel so physical and "real" to me. He prescribed 20mg of citalopram daily, but to be honest, I'm a bit wary of taking them as there seem to be a lot of side effects. I have convinced myself that I am going to have a heart attack due to lack of sleep. GP said the medication would reduce the feelings of anxiety and therefore help me go to sleep, but I'm not sure. I feel like I'm going mad to be honest as I don't feel real and feel a bit light headed and spaced out at times. I also think that my GP must think there is something wrong with me or he wouldn't be sending me for these tests. After all, it costs money to send me for tests so I keep thinking he wouldn't just do it willy-nilly. I have been like this for the best part of 4 months, and frankly, it's really starting to get me down. I don't like to keep going back and forward to the doctors in case he thinks I'm a hypochondriac (sp). I'm soory that this is so long winded, but just typing it out seems to help a bit. Everyone on this forum has been so kind and helpful, I feel things would seem a whole lot worse without you folks. I don't suppose there is anyone up at this ungodly hour, but I'm sure someone will reply when they get a chance.
Thanks a lot & take care everyone.