hi I wasnt sure what to call the thread!
I have had a few years of panic attacks - since my son was born in 2006. they have ruled my life since then although the last year or so they havent been so bad. I had a baby in february this yeat and since then the panic has not been any worse but i have terrible feelings of sadness and wierd thoughts - not about my baby but about my son (who is 2.5 now). For example even though i would never hurt him I keep thinking what if i accidently pushed him onto the road? It upsets me thinking about it and makes me very anxious abotu going places with him. I do love him I dont know why io think this about him and not the other two children (one older one younger)

Is it possible that the anxiety is back just in a different form? I have the health visitor coming to the hosue on wednesday but i dont really want to talk to her as in the past it has just made things worse.

how can i deal with this especially the general sadness as it is really
affecting me badly

I have been to the doctors so many times before they have never helped so i feel like i have no one to ask for help now

sophie