Hi guys. I'm new here (you can see my long winded intro/background in the introductions forums). Lately I've been worrying a lot about my health anxiety itself. I'll go for hours obsessing over certain diseases/symptoms/cancer causes.. etc.. and then when I've exhausted myself I start worrying -about- the worry. Once I talk myself into stopping the thought process of obsessing over my health I start thinking "wow, you really ARE crazy. look what you do to yourself". Also, lately I've started to have health anxiety DREAMS, which has never happened before. I've had hypochondriasis/health anxiety since my preteen years (I'm 30 now) but it's never been this bad. I find myself waking up thinking "if you're DREAMING about diseases/symptoms it's really never going to end". I'm scared that it's so far rooted I won't ever shake it. At this point it doesn't even seem possible. It's become so much of "who I am" that I really don't know what's left if I "stop". I don't WANT this to be my entire personality and I'm scared that's what is happening or has already happened.
Anyone else have these thoughts? Anyone ever been "real bad" and got "better"? I think I need to hear from people who've gotten past it, but I'm having a hard time finding any.