hello i am new here im nineteen years old and ever since i can remember i have been afraid of dying i started having these panic attacks in childhood i would get very short of breath and my mother would have to calm me down i also find that i am afraid of getting older because that eventually leads to death i am agnostic so i do not believe in an after life not because i would not like one but because i dont think there is one how do you reconcile with the fact that you will grow older and one day cease to exist