Got on the train the other day for the first time in like 4 5 months =(
why why why =| =( it wasnt as bad as last time
but bearing in mind last time i was on the floor screaming in pain ='(

but argh ='( i'm sick of trying.
i'm off to college in september and all i can think is, what if i panic at college. i've just spent the last year of my school life panicing and being 'the girl with panic attacks' i dont want that at college!

i'm sick of this. self harming has hit an all time low, doing it almost everyday now =| i just want help! i just want all this to stop! ='(