acceptance of what ever is to come

[den68]

Hi
Just thought id share this for 18 months i have been so scared of the possibility of having some awful illness. So when i saw my nuerologist on monday and he told me the scan was clear but there was a slight chance that i may be starting ms ( although he said more likely anxiety but couldnt rule ms completly out ) i couldnt believe how calm and uneffected i was by it. I just told myself well it probably isnt but if it is theres nothing i can do and it would be years untill it was a real problem. Now what i have figured i spent so many months worrying what happens if i was told it could be something like ms i wont cope ect but i am coping fine so if i can do the same with other things and realise the thought of it is worse than it i will win. Got heart specialist next week and i have decided what will be will be, just got to try to do the same with my fear of medication now got to think the fear of the side effects is worse than the side effects and am now considering taking some medication for my anxiety when i see my gp in 2 weeks
Denise

[tiredOfOcd]

This is a good way to be. I don't know if I can achieve it.

[rebeccad]

hi, well done for being so positive, can i just ask if your scan was clear why might you be starting ms, surely if the scan was clear it is clear? sorry but this is also my biggest fear can i ask what your symptoms were?

[den68]

something to do with pressure behind one of my eyes and some reactions arnt as good as they should be but like i said it was only a possibility something like 5 % chance but its more likley anxiety thats causing most my symptoms so dont worry about it its very unlikely either of us has it
denise

[Panikki]

Hi,
How will you know if you definately got it or not do you have to go back at a later date for further tests? Also how did you get your doc to refer you ...MS has been one of my worries as many of my symptoms are related , also i read on an MS forum that many sufferers had glandular fever at some point in their lives ..which i had many yrs ago! Well done for being some calm..i suppose there is some relief that all your suffering could be something rather than just anxiety ..this sounds mad but i think i would prefer to have a medical diagnosis for my probs rather than just being plain old crazy!!Take Care Jodiex

[den68]

He just said to try and get my anxiety undercontrol and if its just that my symptoms may go and then ill be sure. Have my eye checked at options every year so they can measure the pressure behind it and if i get any strange symptoms that i hadnt told him about in the future to inform my g.p and they could rerefer or i could ring his secretary if i was worrired at any time in the future and he will check me out again but i really believe its anxiety and i need to try and get a grasp on it. What symptoms are you concerned
Denise

[rebeccad]

i went to opticians once and the pressure was up in one of my eyes, this has totally freaked me out now, i get dizziness have had twitching and also a burning sensation in my hands,

[Meewah]

Acceptance is a great idea. If you accept you WILL get ill at some point then you can start living. The problem is the desire to live symptom free is very strong. You have to train yourself to accept what can and will happen.


Live every day like its your last.

Mee