Hi i suffer with anxiety and panic attacks had them since 17 on and off. My mum has always been my rock when i was so low. Sadly 3 years ago she died suddendly. Mum and dad were divorced never really had a close relationship with him. Talk 2 him on phone about panic and he tells me 2 pull myself together only if i could. Getting married next year evertime i mention it changes subject. Says hurtful things feel so angry towards him miss my mum so much