Hi, my names Gemma, i'm young mum to 2 beautiful children aged nearly 4 and 5 months.

For the last 3 months i have started to have a fear of dying, i worry that i won't get to see my children grow up. Before i started feeling like this i always saw myself growing old with my wonderful husband but all i think of now is what if. I hate feeling like this and wish i could feel 'normal' again. I'm seeing a councellor and sometimes i think it helps but when i have a low day i wonder if it is helping.

I'm trying to stay positive but when i do have bad days i'm convinced that there really is something wrong with me and that i'm going to die.

I keep telling myself 'i will get through this and come out the other side, i will do it for my children and husband, i know it will take time but i WILL get there.

Gem