This fear is terrifying
Some time ago I posted on here - very proud that I thought I had discovered that I could fight anxiety without any meds. This, because I developed a real phobia to taking any medication whatsoever without having a panic attack.
I realise now that I should have tried harder to beat the phobia.
After all, we can't all remain absolutely healthy our whole lives and never have the need for drugs at some stage.
I'm writing this because I'm now lying in bed with a very bad dose of flu and after suffering for 5 or 6 days I realised I would have to go to the doctor or would possibly end up in hospital.
Of course I have been given a good supply of drugs which I'm promised will make me better.
The trouble is the fear of taking them and the fear of the side effects is actually making me feel more ill than the flu (I think). I don't even know which symptoms are caused by my flu and which are caused by the drugs, and then again which are caused by my absolute terror at being ill and of course of having to take all these meds.
I should be happy that I am able to take time off, lie in a warm bed, watch tv and have my husband coming home from work at regular intervals to check on me.
Instead, I'm a quivering wreck, crying and shaking and expecting the worst everytime I swallow a pill, and even more scared if I don't take it.
Please, does anyone have any advice for me? Something to shake me out of this?
Thanks, Becky