Agoraphobia & Funeral

[kazzie]

For you and your Mum

Hope you are both coping

Kaz x x x

[mumof4]

im really sorry about ur loss i know what ur going through my mum died of cancer and in the house too she was 50 it was very hard and just like ur gran my mum held on for so long she was in a coma for 7 days woke up for 1 day said goodbye and chatting then feel bk into a coma and passed away the next day.

i wish u and ur mum all the best take care

[Dizzy-Dave]

On the day of her death, I had gone into her room in the morning and told her it was ok to go now.

Spooky hey.

Funeral has been planned. 2 weeks time.

I aim to go but will not punish myself if i cant.

[Dizzy-Dave]

The funeral is in 2 hours.

I'm listening to what my heart says and it's saying it's ok to not go.

I am at peace. I will not be stuck in grieving mode.

There is alot of people coming so i have social phobia to deal with aswell.

I know i can change my mind at any time but my mum wants me to go.

Really torn !

[Dizzy-Dave]

I couldn't do it.

I tried my best and i'm looking smart but i couldn't.

I am not crying my eyes out.

I have lit a candle and i'm going to play a song.

;'(

[Alabasterlyn]

Dave you tried and that is all that matters. You had already said your goodbyes to your nan and I'm sure she would have totally understood that you just couldn't make it today.

It's a tough time for you right now and having social phobia as well makes this sort of thing so much harder to cope with, so I hope that you won't beat yourself up about it

[Dizzy-Dave]

Thank you. I am at piece with my decision.

[kazzie]

My thoughts are with you Dave

Luv Kaz x