I got HPV low risk (sounds much nicer than GW) in January. Always had mild health anxiety but ever since that it has been out of control. I cleared the HPV but the anxiety has only gotten worse and worse. I thought if I didn't have sex anymore and wait until in a proper relationship that would cure me. But I'm still just getting worse. I am feeling completely emotionless to guys and like I just want to run away from them instead of get to know them and maybe get close. I think if i had sex i would start crying hysterically through it because I feel like such a wreck and so damn afraid of stds particularly hiv and herpes. I have a hiv test currently on its way and im waiting for the results. im scared. but guys can tell that im broken. and i feel completely broken. I can't get close to guys cos all i can think about is sex and how if i get close to a guy he'll want sex and honestly it just makes me feel sick the thought of it. when guys even suggest sex im gone. which is ridiculous cos its normal for guys to ask and it shouldnt upset me and freak me out when they do like it does. iv burst into tears on two occasions with two guys because i was asked for sex from them. i ended things with both of them thereafter. i cant take these feelings anymore i have to fix myself. everyday i feel like im getting symptoms of herpes and its like just waiting for the big explosion and whats the point of getting tested for that? tests aren't even accurate and altho iv never had a coldsore to my knowledge i most likely have the virus from all the guys iv kissed in my time. oh god i just feel like theres no help left im so so broken :(