Breast lump worries & I'm getting married

[Hope1]

Hello
This is my first post. I'm getting married on Friday and for the past few weeks my health worries have become worse and so overwhelming. All I want to think about is my big day on Friday but most of the time I'm preoccupied with health worries. One in particular that has plagued me for 5 years, I have a small pea sized lump in my right breast, it has been there for 10 years and never bothered me until 5 years ago when I suddenly started to feel very anxious and worried about health issues, nothing in particular that I can think of triggered this. I've always been a worrier but my head feels so clouded most days with these health worries, I just feel so spaced out a lot of the time. I've been to the doctors countless amounts of times and get reassurance for a day or two but then I find that I don't believe the doctor and I start to worry again. I've worried about everything from brain tumours, breast cancer, all types of cancers. But at the moment its the breast lump that is bothering me again, it's not painful and many doctors have said its harmless, that its a fibrous breast lump and that it can stay there that I should just forget it, but I keep thinking what if it turns cancerous? I totally convince myself that its harmful and I can't get these thoughts out of my mind. I've had CBT sessions but I'm back to worrying again and not in control of these thoughts. Sorry for the long post but any advice on how I can clear my mind for my wedding on Friday and honeymoon would be gratefully accepted.
Love Jane x

[Mogwog]

Hi Jane

You sound just like me - let me try and help you a little (Just got over finding a breast lump myself - benign can't remember what its called!)

First of all you've had it for 10 yrs so its absolutley fine After speaking (FOR A VERY LONG TIME!) to a very nice and very reassuring breast specialist last week - these lumps CANNOT turn into cancer

I can totally understand where you are coming from as I am just like you - I get reassured and then the panic gradually creeps back in but remember it cannot turn into cancer. You are absolutley fine hun.

The way I do it is go over what the doctor has said and in your case remember how long its been there - its nothing sinister.

I hope i've helped you a little , I really am not very good at reassuring people but I really feel for you as I have just been in your position and it was horrific.

Now go ahead and enjoy the run up to your wedding oh and CONGRATUALTIONS!!!!!!

Love and hugs L.xxxxx

[Hope1]

Thanks for your reply it's reasurring, I feel worse when theres a big event coming up like a holiday or at the moment the Wedding! Because I want to enjoy it, its as though the health anxiety is trying to take over and stop me enjoying myself.
thanks again I'm going to try and be positive
Love Jane xx