It is common for teenagers to have different thoughts about sexuality ,hormones are pretty unstable and there are lots of things to explore .Just because you were a bit drunk and had a feeling about kissing someone doesnt mean its your gay side trying to come out .You wer under the influence of drink thats all ,we have all done things when weve had a few too many we wished we hadnt ,You didnt do anything so ,forget it ..If you fancy women sexually you arent gay .If you find a male attractive doesnt mean you are gay .Ive seen women and thought how attractive they were and I m not gay . You seem to be on your own far too much ,all your time is being spent thinking about your thoughts ,this is just feeding your anxiety .Get in touch with your friends and get out for a bit ,its doing you no good whatsover living like you are ..You have the power inside you to change things ,one step at a time .Even if its just for an hour ! make the effort ...Doing other things will distract your thoughts .& make you feel better .Hope fully someone else will reply to you as well ... Take care Luv Sue x