I feel like yesterday I was too happy and to talkative and people were gona get borred of me or anoyed with me and even thought I wasn't to scared to talk and I didn't shut down as much or or get anxious as much yesterday I'm a having a bad morning with this thought.
I went in to chat to people and i felt like i was scareing them off I was talking way to much about way to many thing and I feel like no one talking much back to me. I struggling to keep this fear to a min and I dont how to proceed I worried that i shouldn't get treatment for anxiety because no one like me still so whats the point. I'm going to anoy people happy or angry just my kids so why put my self threw therapy to get better. I feel like crawling in to bed to day and not talking to anyone incase i get to happy around them and look at me like I'm NUTS or childish. I feel like I about to cry over this and really dont want to cause i just want to feel normal and happy and be comfortable with that feeling. But I feel like my normal will never be normal no matter how much i try to make it normal it's like I'm doom to have no friend's if I be who i am inside.
My anxiety is prety bad this morning I have palp and feel shacky and weak my arm's feel heavy and I tense. I feel dizzy and I just want to stand up and shack the symptom's free of me and put them in bin so i feel better. I feel like I'm on a never ending rollercoaster of emotion right now and when eva i remove a layer of fear's there is another layer awaiting me to focus on.
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