Hello All,
Well, I'm at it all over again. Its this fear of having seizures...Its really getting to me again. It happens everynight. I have these pains in my head (something my mother calls ice pick headaches) They aren't always there, but I get them. Anyway...My fear of seizures has gotten far worse. I get really tense in my neck, and get these strange feelings in my head...almost like confusion, fuzzy, my eyes feel heavy, and I just feel like I'm about to black out and have a siezure...or lose my mind. Sometimes it gets so bad, that I'm convinced that I'm going to have a seizure. I'll lay down on a bed surrounded by pillows so that if I convulse I wont injure myself, and I'll even bite down onto a blanket so that I wont bite my tongue during a seizure. Now I know most of my symptoms aren't seiupzure symptoms, and I know that if I was to have one I wouldn't be aware of it. I HAVE NEVER had a seizure before...but I just fear having one...its taking over. I have horrible fear everynight...and they never go away! it gets worse to the point where I am just giving up because this feeling in my head....it just feels so real, as if though I'm either going to go insanee or something terrible. its so overwhelming, and hard to explain....whats wrong with me?
~Shannon~