Hey there...I'm not sure if I've posted this in the right place but here goes.
I've got Agorophobia. I haven't been formally diagnosed. In fact I haven't even told my GP about it and those who know about it don't believe me. (aunt & cousins). My mum and nan know I have agorophobia and keep telling me to get help for it as I'm letting it ruin my life.
Their right. Im too afraid to leave the house now and on the rare occassions I do I need someone with me and feel like I'm having a panic attack. I dont know what a panic attack feels like so Im just guessing here but it feels pretty scary and constricting. This really is controlling my life. I cant go out, answer the front door or even pop my head out the door without feeling pressure in my chest and worrying.
Its horrible. I do driving lessons once a week for 2 hours and this is really hard to do. I'm fine in the car but when I'm driving past crowds of people or shops that I expect to be busy or its after 3pm, I panic. I thought I was hiding it well until my driving instructor asked my nan is something wrong with me. So much for hiding it well, eh? Lol.
I will do everything I can to avoid going out. I used to be always outside having fun with friends and been a regular, wild teenager. Now Im like a frightened OAP. I dont know what brought this on. I wish I did. Maybe then I could face the cause and get over it. Ive been trying to fight it and thought I was winning until I felt myself being scared to open the door again. Im fine at my GPs surgeyu but walking home is pretty intimidating. My family keep telling me to go outside and get some chips or a drink for them. They know Im scared and I mumble something and say I need toilet and stay in there for 30minutes, lol. But their horrible so I think their doing it on purpose to send me crazy. [V]
Ive noticed Its worse when kids are off school and on holidays. You'd need a crane to get me out of the house around that time. When I rarely go out I only do this around 9-3pm and must be home by 3pm. If I have a appointment which I know will mean I wont be home till after 3pm, I'll cancel it or make up some excuse. I wont go on buses as they terrify me. I feel like wherever I go, everyone is staring at me and know some awful secrets about me or something. If Im standing in a que (this was around christmas time) there was 2 girls by me, a few years younger than me. They were whispering by the side of me and I looked at them and saw one of the girls looking at me and it freaked me out. Thinking about it now I think she saw me turn aorund out of the corner of her eye and looked but I dunno. I feel like a freak.
I cant tell my GP as they wont listen to me. They'll give me Prozac which doesn't work. I've heard Valim works but I'll never get that off my GP. Their a bunch of "quacks". How is agorophobia diagnosed and treated?
Has anyone else got this? I would like to hear personal experiences as well as advice if thats ok. Hope your all doing well.
You have to fight to survive and never give in.