hi all,
having a really bad day today. got massive palpitations or something that i keep getting. ( still dont know what it is ) i it really scares me. of course then i started getting really anxious which made my heartbeat go funnier still. its like a vicious circle. for some reason my panic attacks has gotten less but the anxiety is taking over with a vengence. i feel completly useless and pathetic. i only work 4 nights a week now. have cut down from 6. but even that feels like its so much to cope with. i hate feeling like this. just want to be able to go about day to day stuff without feeling like the world is falling from under me. in a bit i have to go to work, put on a smile and pretend to be fine when all i want to do is be under the covers crying. i just want the clouds to shift and the sun to shine again...

twigs