hi
im a new member and im just starting to explore my problems. I assumed when i became ill that what is suffer from is phobia, but the literature ive been reading recently is suggesting to me that it is closer to OCD than to phobia. I have obsessive thoughts about death, dying, illness and accidents. for instance, I think im going to fall when i walk down stairs/get out of shower, I get on a bus and have images of it on fire/crashing etc. I have elaborate 'fantasies' (i hate using this word because it suggests I enjoy it) about my own death - what people will be like when I am gone, how it would affect everyone, what they would say, what flowers they would send etc.
when i was a child in retrospect i certainly had OCD. I used to count the amount of times id chewed my food and it had to be equal on both sides. used to make and remake my bed. the only counting thing i still have is counting stairs and steps. however i only find this vaguely annoying.
about the death thing - is it an OCD or is it a phobia? I realise i sound preoccupied with labels, but its really important to me.
hope someone can shed some light
amanda