emetophobic and feeling sick all the time
.....even when I take cyclizine which are an antihistamine designed to stop you feeling sick, I took omeprazole too today, and that hasn't helped, just seems like im forever feeling sick, I'm sure i was feeling this way before I started on the citalopram too, and even if it was the citalopram it would have stopped by now i should think (im at about 6-7 weeks i think)
I had a H.Pylori test for a stomach ulcer which came back negative, and when I asked what the alternative possibilities are regarding my stomach acid and nausea he said 'some people are just like that' which I felt was rubbish.
Also I saw a consultant psychiatrist this last week who told me that he thinks I have GAD and that there is nothing he or anyone can do to help me. I won't go into my opinions of this as this is a polite message board.
I've been on most antidepressants going, some seem to work for a while and then I slip back, but I'm not sure if that was down to drinking heavily whilst on them or not. Only two antidepressants have worked for me and firstly was fluoxetine which eradicated my problem (I can't remember how long it took though) but I had a relapse whilst still on the fluoxetine and tyhats when we tried allsorts of different medications (I've had 3-4 different doctors) we tried citalopram after trying amytriptiline and after some horrible weeks, I secured a temporary job, and started getting regular excersise (I rode to work on a bike for 45 mins each way every day)and I was doing well for abotu 3 months. but after that job had ended I slipped back. I also asked the doctor (a different one from he who prescribed citalopram) if it might be a good idea to change my ADs as I thought citalopram were making me angry, this turned out to be a bad idea and I slowly slipped back into hell, been there ever since, on venlafaxine and mirtazipine both of which provided very temporary relief(though it was during these tiems i was drinking heavily) now I've been on citalopram again for 6-7 weeks and had virtually nothing to drink since over a week or two before I started it(been a bit drunk one night and tipsy on another 2 occasions)however the war against anxiety still rages as bloodily as ever, though I made it into town and back today without my drinks bottle or MP3 player, though that was horrible....
just seems like no matter what I try it won't let up even enough for me to get back into regular work/education( I plan to start studying again at college in new year) I can never remember how long it took for them to start working last time either
Doctor flatly refuses to prescribe any form of anti anxiety whatsoever, even non-benzodiazepines, and whislt these aren't constructive in the lnog term they might be helpful at night times like tonight.
anyone any words of comfort or support? Because I sure haven't got any for myself
thanks for letting me rant.
Dan
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