Originally Posted by
caribou1980
Hi Poet
My first post!
I've been on citalopram 40mg for about a year. I suffered with anxiety and obtrusive thoughts (OCD) for 9 years previous to going on meds. I could have wept with relief at the respite from all the ugly thoughts and constant chaos going on in my head that citalopram has brought me, It's really been a wonder drug for me (I realise it's not the same for everyone). However, my partner constantly comments on how forgetful I am, how I can seem to 'zone out' every now and again. But my answer to him is that I would rather seem a bit passive than suffer as I did before. I think you have to be really explicit when you are explaining this illness as it is so debilitating and I don't think most people have a clue how awful it is, even those closest to us. We are like alchoholics - very good at hiding it!
Despite the meds, people go through huge changes just coming through anxiety disorders and depression, it alters your whole wold and how you experience it but at your core, you are still you and this problem does not define you. If your partner does not know this then maybe you are better off doing this thing by yourself - it can only make you stronger and you are not alone, we are here.