Phew Yvonne - you are going through it at the moment aren't you.
I'm glad you keep posting here - at least you know you're not on your own.
And you have your Dad to look after, and it sounds like you do a lot more than some would do. So well done for caring.
It is good that your memories are coming out - better out than in they say! At least as they come out you can do something about it - at the least pray and try to let go, and let some light in.
Sorry about your friend leaving - it may seem hard - but God will send you more friends I'm sure.
I think it's good that you felt more upset than panicky at the gps. There probably is a relationship between your panic/anxiety and feling upset.
And I think honestly that all this could be a great healing time for you if you keep cool, and take it one hour at a time.
I think you got a raw deal in life, and think how great it wil be when you come out the other side feeling great and on top of the world, and I believe it can happen.
God bless
Martin
Isaiah 41:10"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."