Hi,
I have not been on here a while anyway im on medication for OCD and seeing a mental health nurse until i can have CBT but im having terrible suicidal thoughts like i just want it all to end i wondering if i do not want to die if i just want to escape from the suicide thoughts and other intrusive thoughts i get. I took an overdose 7 years ago and im scared incase i will loose control and do something stupid. My partner got in touch with my pychiatrist today who rang me i told her she then said ill get in touch with my consultant and ring you back anyway someone rang me back from a mental health place and said if you feel that bad and you feel like you are going to do something you will have to be admitted to hospital i said i did not want to go into hospital i just cannot get rid of these thoughts he said well its not the best place to be when your like that so my partner is away tonight and he said someone will come out tomorrow to see me he said he could contact the mental health crisis team but its all down to resources. Has anyone alse ever felt like this and will it get any easier a few weeks back i was improving but have just got worse im so scared and all alone i just cant seem to fight it. I have been in bed all day today as i cannot face getting up. I also feel as though the thoughts are telling me i should die i have never felt so all alone and frightened in my life and i dreading tomorrow to see what they will say.