Im going to my friends fathers funeral and wake a week tomorrow. He sadly died of Cancer on Christmas Eve. The easy thing would be not to go but I want to pay my respects. How do I cope? I thought about sitting at the back of the crematorium but in my state of mind I feel very conscious that I will cry non stop throughout wherever I sit.At least I can make a quick dignified exit. Im taking Mum and Dad too and I know they will want to sit up front and people are bound to ask why Im not sitting with them and why should I expect Mum and Dad to lie for me. My parents would be really understanding if I explain why I need to sit at the back but I want to support them too and not be so so self centered about this. Im also worried how it will affect me after as I tend to dwell on things.I cant avoid these things can I?Is it better to make myself go whether Im feeling well or not?My counsellor would say this is a trigger situation and the next stage is to identify what I fear may happen and how Ill cope. Its all too text book sometimes!Can anybody advise me please.Thanks.