Hi Everyone, Thank you all for sharing about your phobias of death. I posted a very long post about my fears a few days ago - I have had this train of thought on and off for a very long time but sometimes I have gone for over a year where I can function fine then when the fear takes hold I am obsessed and terrified 100% of the time.
This fear is really horrible. You know I know this is a horrible thing to say but I think if I feared anything in life as much as this then I would surely kill myself! But that is certainly never crossed my mind - that's what I am scared of!!!! It seems like there is no way out and it becomes so scary!
I have had therapy and I am on medication - they do help numb the fear. I think I have learnt to recognise it as an irrational fear and that helps me - kind of thinking "this scares me because I have a phobia and not 'cause its really scaring everyone!"
I know completely what you mean about not being able to talk to anyone about it 'cause they just think you are mad - this makes this phobia so iscolating and much worse! But I am exactly the same - its too morbid, too grusome! But in some respects I also find it strangely reasuring that people think I am mad! Because it makes me realise that it IS possible to be at ease with death! Its not like all these people are ignorant to the fact that we die its just that they get on with it - and also I can be like that when I am feeling well!!!! And so were you Poppy when your parents died - death was staring you in the face and I am sure you were grief stricken but not terrified.
My fear, like yours is not of an accident or painful death but of their being nothing. I too can't believe in anything without proof. I really so so so wish I could!!!!!! That would be the perfect answer... are we control freaks? Is it because we don't like the not knowing?
Ive suffered for years with this and only joined this forum recently - its such a nice thing to chat to others about it!
xx