Well, it's here again!
Yet again, I'm finding myself getting edgy already (actually, that started ages ago!)
I'm getting wound up about having to go to relatives - go to my mum's on Xmas Day (not so bad), then boyfriend's Mum's on Boxing Day (MUCH worse! - Loads of people, eating, overbearing mum etc etc).
But the worse thing is New Year's Eve - obviously I want my other half to have a great time, but I am suffering more and more with agoraphobia due to very severe panic attacks, and find social situations particularly difficult.
My boyfriend doesn't drive, and when I get really bad, I really shouldn't be driving. Of course, I don't want to have to rely on anyone else because I want to be able to escape if I have to. AGHHHH!!![V]
Last year was really awful, and I ended up at home alone on Boxing Day while my boyfriend went to see his mum, then we spent New Year's Eve at home.
I'm exhausted already, and it hasn't even started yet![^]