At the moment I feel like I try and give so much and I get so little back and I don't know whether that is the harsh reality of the world or just the way that people are reacting to me because I'm depressed.
I volunteered for a local theatre group recently and gave up quite a lot of my time painting their sets. I was half-expecting some praise or gratitude from the director when he saw our efforts, but he didn't seem interested. And when I went to see the play (for which I had to pay to get into), instead of my name being in the programme, they had put the name of the leading actress, who had nothing at all to do with the sets. Not only that, but they had painted out some of what I had done. I felt very offended and under-appreciated.
Last week I sent all my long-distance friends christmas cards via email and, even though I know they have been picked up, not one of them has sent me a quick message saying thank you or merry christmas.
I know that if I'm looking for something back from my good deeds that I'm doing it for the wrong reasons, but just a little bit of gratitude would make me feel so much more appreciated. I've felt so depressed for so long and I'm taking a giant leap by reaching out and trying to be proactive. I just find it so discouraging and disheartening that most people don't appear to give a toss. They can't be bothered to make a small effort that would make someone else really happy.
Ships in harbour are safe..but that's not what ships were built for.