Hi everyone, i know that for a lot of people leaving school is like the next best thing to Christmas, but i am really terrified! I do enjoy school to a certain extent and i love the structure that it puts into my life, but how do i cope when thats gone.
In four months examines will be finished and it will be the end of year 11, but with it is going to come soooooo much change. I dont cope well with change and am finding the whole idea really stressful. I know that by leaving school it will mean becoming independant and in a way the end of childhood. I know that i want to do sixthform, but i dont understand how we can choose A level courses for the future if we don't know what we want to do. I have some ideas but with not being sure of a future career or degree i am trying to keep my options open.
Everytime a teacher tells us how much time we have left i come over all light headed, dizzy, and my heart begins to race. i am finding it really hard to concentrate on the work that i am doing and so am having to do it when i get home. Lately ive been beginning to panic more and more i put my hand up in english today and begin to experience symtons of panic, the only way i could stop them was by putting my hand down yet the more i avoid it the more likely my teacher will ask me a question which then starts it again. I cant see past the end of sixth form let alone in ten years time whether ill be married, working or have had kids, which is what all our PSCHE lessons are based on, I just dont no what to do!:(
Sam