Hello everyone,
I've been suffering anxiety since I was a child. I understand that it's part of who I am. However, since having my two children my anxiety has escalated considerably. My daughter is eight years and my son is 15 months. This must be quite normal but I really struggle with it. I have a whole host of anxiety related issues:
Health anxiety (about myself and my children)
Body dismorphic disorder (Although had cosmetic surgery to correct a real problem which I was bullied over at school and in adult life)
Generalized anxiety
deep seated fear of death (of myself or loved ones)
fear of global/ mass disasters which threatnen me and loved ones
Social phobia and shy- can be worse some times more than others
OCD varoius rituals- not so bad at the moment
Panic attacks- and other psychosomatic symptoms
These are the main ones anyway...
I feel I live in constant anticipation and fear that something awful is going to happen. I feel like I'm destroying myself. Since I gave birth to my son 15 months ago I suffered severe postnatal depression along with full blown- really bad health anxiey- and PTSD (due to trauma after giving birth- I heamorraged- thought I was going to die).
Embarrissingly the doctors surgery has become my second home after having my son due to constant health anxiety. I try to rationalise it but it's very difficult as I can start to feel genuinly ill from it.
Recently my hair has been falling out from the stress, I get regular body spasms and wheezing and breathlessness. Sometimes I feel like I'm just drying up- feel so ill.
There are so many issues going on at the moment which make me feel like I'm stretched to cope. I really want to learn to cope better.
Thank you for reading, sorry it's so long!
Izzy*
Reply With Quote
to NMP Izzy. Glad that you have found us. This is a friendly site with great information and support.
